I am one "step" closer.

So some exciting but also terrifying things are happening for me tomorrow, tomorrow I am one step closer to starting my dream job (ever since I was 4 years old), I have wanted to be a.... TEACHERS AIDE!!! 9.30am tomorrow I need to attend a information session, a literacy and numeracy test and then finally I need to do an interview. In all honesty I am shared shitless (excuse my french). I have not sat a literacy/numeracy test let alone a interview for at least ten... Yes, 10!! years ago. My palms are sweaty and shaking, my throat is dry and I feel sick to my stomach. The course runs from the 12th May to the 17th Nov. There maybe 20 people that are interested in the course but there are only 10-12 people who get through. (fingers crossed I am one of those 12). We have to attend class one day a week, study one day and do work experience another. I am really excited to start as I've know about the Cert III in Education Support since early Feb. This course will lead to (I believe) one of the most important jobs ever!. This course can not only change my life, my families but also the lives of those future kids I get to teach. (I wish you could all see my face right now.. I'm smiling from ear to ear). As soon as I have an answer to whether I get in (or not) then I will update you all!! I really hope they only make us wait a day or two, otherwise I am going to go crazy. Wish me luck everyone!!!! Amanda <3.

crazy season has started!!.

It's crazy to think it's been a month already since I've written anything.... In that time we've celebrated 4 birthday, started Christmas shopping, weekly parent help at Hailee's school & loads more. When I have more then 5 mind to myself I shall be posting photo's :) Amanda <3.

Her Future: I wonder what it holds.

23.10.13 @ 11.35am: As I sit here in my daughter's classroom today I watch her. I don't want my daughter to be an outcast just because her mum is different from all the others!. I want her to grow up & tell people she's proud of who her mum is. I fear even though she's only in Kindergarden that she already may be treated differently by her peers & teachers. I don't want her to grow up, look back & hate primary school because of me & say it stopped her from making friends or doing the best she can at school. I myself really enjoyed primary school. high school's another story! every other week I thought about "harming" myself. I didn't want to be there. I don't want that for my daughter either..I want her to excel at school, I want her to make 1,000 friends (or even just 2 best friends). It's strange the things you think about or worry about when you have kids isn't it.... Amanda <3.

time flies..

the saying "time fly's when you're having fun" is so true. especially for us this week. Our big girl has just completed her second day of Kindergarden/Pre Primary or what ever you may call it. I honestly can't believe this the has finally come! Where did the last 4 years of my life, my tiny babies life go? I don't want to blink to fast because before I know it age will be starting High school [wow! That sent shivers down my spine]. Her first day was a blur for both her and I, we were so tired. But today as soon as she got off the bus [yep she goes on the "big girl bus" on her own] she immediately started chatting my ear off about all the things she got up to today, she even told me who her new friends where. I wanted to cry!! Well good night my friends we shall speak again soon [i may even upload a few pics] ;) Amanda <3. P.S My wound on the bottom of my left foot has FINALLY healed!! [party time?!] nurses are really happy with my progress which makes me very happy. It means I can finally be fitted for proper bandages/wrapping garment. Once I have the appointment I will be taking photo's.