OUCHIES....I'VE HURT MY KNEE [act 2]

continuing on from my last post....

So there I was sitting in the eating room for about 2 hrs, sleeping on and off. That's what my body does when i've hurt myself, it uses up the only energy I do have left to help the injured part.

I was finally called into the ER and they asked me to get on the bed so I could be examined. I said "sorry to be rude but there is no way in hell I am getting on that bed, as soon as I lay down and my leg is flat the pain is at it's worse". "Ok" they said "stay in the chair as long as you can" A doctor came in to find out my history (which is literally a medical book in itself) I told him what I had done, told him the medications I am allergic to and he walked off.

Another doctor walked in a while later and asked me to get onto the bed so he could examine my leg. I was hesitant but knew if I was to get an x-ray I had to get onto that bed. I informed this new doctor of what I had done, within 5 minutes an orderly came and took me to x-ray, I bought Steve with me incase they wanted me off the ER bed and onto one of theirs. Lucky for me I got to stay in the bed... thank god.

I had 3 pictures taken of me knee/leg. I had no idea what time it was by then but I was sleeping on and off, they came in gave me some pain killers and explained to me what I had done. Well because I was half asleep what I thought I heard them say was completely wrong and I was informing friends/family of the wrong info. They said I could leave as soon as a physcio therapist came to fit me with a brace. He arrived at 5pm. I have to wear my lovely brace for 4 weeks. As soon as he put it on the pain went away immediately... yay!!

Apparently I have torn my anterior crucial ligament (just like what footballers do). The doctor said that if I was able to walk I may have had to have a knee reconstruction. OMG!! As soon as I heard that I started hating myself, something so trivial, something I do everyday and I have really damaged my knee. I started getting depressed and knew I was unable to look after Hailee, I didn't want her to see me so sad. Luckily my mum was able to watch her for a few days so I could get my head sorted. I knew I needed to get on with things, I knew it would take me twice as long to get out of bed, to get dressed, to be able to do everyday things like laundry (lol). But I had to get on with life.

It's been just over 3 weeks now. I still have pain, again only when I am in bed, so I am on Pan- Forte. I feel as like the top of my leg is hanging on by a thread when I take my brace off during the day, it really isn't the nicest feeling at all!! Actually until the weekend just gone I hand't taken it off since they put it on me in the hospital.

Well that's my big new for this week (LOL) I am hoping to be back to normal in a week or 2. Let's wait and see huh... I shall keep you all updated on how I am feeling.

Night all. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Stay safe!
Amanda <3

OUCHIES...I'VE HURT MY KNEE :( [act.1]

It was a normal night in our household we had just finished dinner, Steve was drying Hailee off from her shower when I decided I wanted to get changed into something warmer. It was Wednesday night around 7pm [27th]. I was getting changed on my bed, rolled over on to my stomach and heard the loud POP!! I also felt this sharp pain radiate down my right leg. I instantly knew that I was in trouble. Hubby was in the ensuit and said he heard it too. I sat up in my chair went and watched t.v for the next three hours it never hurt. What? I can't understand why..what's going on (I thought I may have "popped" it back into place when I sat in my chair. BUT as soon as I crawled into bed and lay down I knew everything was WRONG!. I cried on and off. Had some panadol to try get some sleep and tried to convince Steve not to go to work because I needed to go to hospital straight away. Thursday morning I woke u, I couldn't get out of bed so luckily my Mum was here to pick miss Hailee up to take her to daycare(she does every week...thanks Mum). As soon as she left I rang Steve at work and begged him once again to come home. He came home 2 hours later. I was feeling ok in the car, until I got the the hospital when I just wanted to throw up like I had been doing the night before. You can read the rest on Thursday...hehe sorry guys it's late and I'm tired. Night!! Amanda <3

things are finally looking up!

I'm happy to report that things are finally looking up in regards to my left foot!. I was diagnosed with Lymphedemia back in 1999(?) when I had surgery on my spine to help my scoliosis, by inserting a rod and 6 screws. At first my face blew up and doctors said it was normal to have that much fluid after an huge operation like that. Aproximatly about 12 months after my operation when I finally could sit In my chair with out pain & my brace my mum noticed my legs starting to get bigger. The Lymphedemia had spread yao my legs. I could no longer wear shoes :(. At the birth of my daughter in 2008 a family member asked if I had an Epi, because my legs were HUGE!! I of course said no, not really realizing how big they had gotten I started to get preasure sores on mt leg (left prominently) I had never had pressure sores before, even when laying for 3 months after my spine surgery. Not until about 12 months ago was I concerened about the fluid in my legs. I had quite a huge hole in the soul of my foot, this not only is dangerous because well lets face it, our body's are not meant to have things like this BUT because it was/is on my left leg I can not feel it!! Only by my husband or community nurses checking my leg can they find such things. While in hospital in Nov(?) they talked to me about the possibility of my left leg being amputated! What are these people serious? I used to joke about it when I was younger because I was in my wheelchair full time was there a reason to have my legs?. I came to the conclusion that YES! I needed it!!! If I am sitting on something (like the floor or couch) I need it to balance me. If my leg was to be amputated just below the knee I would always fall over (hehe yeah I'm laughing too). Not only that but having an amputated limb you run this risk of infection. I didn't want to go through that! So I decided to finally let the severity of the situation get to me, I pulled my finger out and actually started to care. It's funny how things like the possibility of loosing a limb can get your butt into gear. It's been over 12 months now since I first got the sore, I have been seeing (3 times in the last 5 months) the wound clinic at one of our local hospitals. What they have been doing has really helped! I'm not 100% sure on the dimensions of the hole (I don't ask or want to see a pic...it's gross!) but I think it was about the size of a Madeleine (or even orange) now its about the size of a 10c piece...YAY!!! I can finally wear stocking to help with the fluid. Oh!! I forgot to mention once you have lymphedemia you live it for the rest of your life. There is no cure. You can massage, bandage, or use stockings and that's it! I have been having a 3 layer bandage put on my leg 3 times a week for aprox 3 moths. You should see the results..it's amazing!!! (one day I will share the pics) Anyway I had my 3rd appointment at the clinic. They were very impressed with my results so far... but the discovered a problem :( (AWW! It was quite the word I used but I'm sure you can imagine). When they were looking at my ties she noticedmy big toe was a little red and there was a small amount of fluid coming out. Doctor wanted mr to goon antibiotics but I'm allergic to 99.99% of them so it means I can't go on any so we just have to clean it everyday and put cream on it. Why oh why does this happen to me??! Things finally start looking like they are getting better and something has to go wrong :( I'm pretty sick of it now!. Well that's my "news" for now! Something exciting is happening to our little family next week that I will be VERY happy to report..so until next time. have fun, find joy the little things and celebrate them!! Amanda <3

I'm out but not myself

Hello Everyone,

I'm out of hospital (I have been for almost a week). Though I am out I'm not myself :(

I felt fine in there.

I came home took my pills/ felt worse than ever.

I went to my GP to change them.

That was 2 days ago.

These new ones haven't kicked in yet.

I just want to be back to 100%.

I hate feeling like this!.

I guess my body is trying to tell me it's time to slow down.

To slow down after the horrid month I had last month.

Ok time to lay down and get some rest...blog again soon.
<3