Her Future: I wonder what it holds.

23.10.13 @ 11.35am: As I sit here in my daughter's classroom today I watch her. I don't want my daughter to be an outcast just because her mum is different from all the others!. I want her to grow up & tell people she's proud of who her mum is. I fear even though she's only in Kindergarden that she already may be treated differently by her peers & teachers. I don't want her to grow up, look back & hate primary school because of me & say it stopped her from making friends or doing the best she can at school. I myself really enjoyed primary school. high school's another story! every other week I thought about "harming" myself. I didn't want to be there. I don't want that for my daughter either..I want her to excel at school, I want her to make 1,000 friends (or even just 2 best friends). It's strange the things you think about or worry about when you have kids isn't it.... Amanda <3.

time flies..

the saying "time fly's when you're having fun" is so true. especially for us this week. Our big girl has just completed her second day of Kindergarden/Pre Primary or what ever you may call it. I honestly can't believe this the has finally come! Where did the last 4 years of my life, my tiny babies life go? I don't want to blink to fast because before I know it age will be starting High school [wow! That sent shivers down my spine]. Her first day was a blur for both her and I, we were so tired. But today as soon as she got off the bus [yep she goes on the "big girl bus" on her own] she immediately started chatting my ear off about all the things she got up to today, she even told me who her new friends where. I wanted to cry!! Well good night my friends we shall speak again soon [i may even upload a few pics] ;) Amanda <3. P.S My wound on the bottom of my left foot has FINALLY healed!! [party time?!] nurses are really happy with my progress which makes me very happy. It means I can finally be fitted for proper bandages/wrapping garment. Once I have the appointment I will be taking photo's.

it's a crazy small world!

Hello everyone, Hope you've had a great week & if it's raining where you are like here in Tas.. I hope you are all staying dry!! Today's post is about all the little things that can bring two(2) families together. Steve & I met over the Internet about 7.5 years ago [as we speak we are having a "discussion" about the exact time/year -neither of us can remember] at that time little did we know how much our families had/have in common. Steve's birthday is 12.11, Brodie's birthday is 21.11, Hailee's birthday is 2.11, see where I'm going here? Lol. It's not just birthdays. it's anniversaries, lucky numbers, and so much more!! Another thing we have in common that you may remember me blogging about last time was my (future) sister in-laws's name is Amanda Jade. Just like mine!. The "similar names" don't just stop there either! ha, I can hear you all laughing My grand mother (on Dad's side) was born Joan Margeret [though was known as Marg Joan], well My mother in-laws grandmother, was also named Joan Margeret Lol. Have any of you guys watched the movie V for Vandetta?! Do you remember the line "remember, remember the 5th of November!" ? Well I say that to Steve about the anniversary of our first date. It was the 3rd of Nov. so I say "remember, remember the 3rd of November." lol. Which is also a coincidence because our little princess, Hailee was born on the 2nd Nov... haha!! I may have blogged about this (but can't remember) while in labor the nurse asked me when our anniversary was, I said 3rd of Nov. She smiled and laughted & said... "That's tomorrow!!" (I had no idea).

i "LOVED" the idea of motherhood

Hello Everyone,

sorry i've been MIA the last few days..we have had family over from Sydney and needed the whole weekend to catch up with them hehe.

This post is inspired from a fellow mother who "told the truth" about motherhood and put out a search to see if she was alone in her thoughts... to her suprised at least 60 people replied to her and explained to her she was not.

Watching a family member of mine seemlessly go from "career woman to motherhood" within a short period of time. I became little jelous, yep jelous. I thought that every woman must be able to do it this easy...

as they say
"like water off a ducks back".

From the outside said cousin could have all 3 kids dressed, breakfast served, house cleaned, and 2 of the 3 kids off to school. To the outside/me it seems so simple. But if you spent the day with them I am sure you would see the "ugly side" of parenting.

Falling pregnant myself I began to realise things where not as easy as they looked from 'outside of the motherhood bubble'. Of course being disabled I know it would be harder for me but still.. remember how I told you I suffered from HG while pregnant? Well that's when things started going south.

After having a premature baby who spends their first 2 months in hospital its enevidable one of the parents would go through some type of 'depression'. It hit me like a tonne of bricks. I felt so isolated, lonely, and undefined as a person when I had no contact with the outside world.

How can we be expected to "look our best" 24/7, society wants us to devote ourselves 100% to our family, never complaining, always seeking to look our best. Yeah sure maybe in a dream world.. but in reality. No way!! As im typing to you I am wearing an old t-shirt, track pants and a jumper. If you think thats bad you should see my loungeroom at the moment LOL, toys from one side to the other. Why is society so hard on us these day? expecting us to look/be perfect ALL the time.

Sorry guys.. never going to happen haha.

My Mantra:
A Happy Mum = Happy Kids


What does your world really look like?

Getting started...

Hi everyone.

I was a bit grumpy this morning, I didnt get much sleep last night [it was self inflicted as i was catching up on a program I had taped from the night before]. As soon as I was up I made myself a cuppa tea. This is the only thing that can get me "up and going"

look at this is making me want another one...yum!


what is your one thing you need to get you up and rearing to face the day?

I believe in this 100% lol..
[google images]

The antics of a 2.5yr old...

"what's wrong (insert name)"
"look at me I'm doing (insert activity)"
"no thank you"
"oh no this toy/person has gone"
"what on earth was that?"
"1-2-3-4-5, ready or not, I fineded you"

"what you doing?"
"come on (insert name) let's go outside"
"ry-nos-rus" -rinosarus
"hip-potn-ormous" - hippopotamus
"what you drawing there (insert name)?"
[on phone]"hello, speaking Hailee, yes, thank you, ok, bye-bye"

"don't be silly"
[making noises]" oh I scared/scary"
"shh mum be quiet I'm reading"
"wake up- I love u"
"ring Grandpa?!"  - ends up calling some random Lol
"that's great drawing mum"

"no way"
"king of castle, I a rascal"
"oops daisy fall down"
"humpety dumpety" - humpdy dumpdy
"next one"
"good girl Hay-yee"

Me:what's your name? "Hay-yee Nole Rik-tah"
"what yeah gunna do?"
"I'm/we're back"
"what's that sound?"
"Love my boyfiend Cody"

My cheeky lil' Monkey...


Ha! I know I've been so slack on this writing thing but I'm sure those of you who have a toddler realize just how busy they keep you and how much "me time" you DON'T get. Well we are now coming up to her 3rd birthday :( and I promise this time I will upload pics from her last birthday and this one :P

Hailee's Birth Story!

Hello Everyone.

It was Saturday 1st November and my mum came around to see how I was feeling, I was 28 weeks and 6 days into my pregnancy. My whole pregnancy I was sick and diagnosed with Hyperemisis Gravadarum (HG) and that day was no different!. But as I was feeling a little better during so I decided I was going to finally pack my hospital bag. Though I was scheduled to have a c-section (for medical reasons) at 35 weeks.

I had no idea what was in store for me in the next 24 hours!!. The next morning Steve (my hubby) and I were about to head to a family BBQ. Unfortunately when I got up I found that we were going to have to spot at the hospital.

At the hospital Pregnancy clinic they checked me and said that the babies head was crowning and there was no was I could have a c-section now, I had to have her naturally. Because I was still early in my pregnancy they had to get a few nurses from NICU in there asap, the NICU professor even came in.

After 20 minutes of pushing, nothing was happening so they decided they would have to find another way to help her out. 3 hours after first coming into the hospital Hailee was born! Steve rang my mum and told her, it was lucky mum was still at the family BBQ so everyone found out at once.

I didn't get to meet my little girl until a few hours later. But she was the most gorgeous, precious Little thing in the whole world!. I feel in love straight away.

Hailee 15minutes old.


Hailee Nicole R.
2nd November
1.2 kg (2.2 pound)
Sunday 3.02pm